Friends.......????

I live my life usually not caring too deeply for anythting, and I always use the motto from "The Lion King"...Hakuna Matata~~~means no worries. I know as a man with a seven year old daughter it is not exactly the mind set I should have. It is just that's the way I am..........Also, I really never regret anything either. But one thing I really regret these days is that I never stayed friends with the people I was really friends with.......At many different stages in my progression through life I have had many really good friends, I mean close like family type, ya know? I went through some of the funnest and weirdest times growing up, and usually there was somebody who I honestly loved right beside me.............I can close my eyes and picture maybe 100 people who I was BEST friends with........and yet right now I have none of them on my speed dial. I hate it.......and yet I have changed in such a way that I am not able to be that friend I was be4...........hmmm???