When I'm with you

There once was a day that I had all thought out in my mind.....a day that would have been nothing short of perfect. This day would have been sunny, warm, and with a slight cool breeze blowing. The type of day that you wished would go on forever. I would have had nothing planned but I am sure that things would have just went the way things are supposed to........
I really do not know what I would have said at first, but as always I think I would have been able to come up with something to say. You would gave been beautiful as always, and I am sure just as nervous as I would be. The day would turn into evening without us even noticing. And much like all days this one would come to an end....but not without a promise to do this all again....if not the nest day, one day very soon.

But this magical day has never come.

and sadly I do not think it will.........

All effed up

People are always complaining about how life is not going their way, and about how miserable things are in their lives. I am not one of those people......Although I feel that perhaps I have a lot to complain about, I don't. I rarely let things out so that others can hear them.....I guess that is why I go to a "shrink". Just so that I do not have to bother others with my BS. I often wonder though if maybe I should go to others with certain things rather than being so shut in all the time. Nah!!! I think I will continue to keep things in....

HMMMM???

Another Sunday evening is here and I continue to think and even wish for something ecxiting to happen. I suppose I can wish and hope all I want but until I finally get up and make something happen.....nothing will. Watching my Canucks play in game 3 of their series against St. Lious......Had a few nights to think this past week and there were really a few things that just would not get out of my mind. Obviously, my daughter Aiden and her future, and what she will make of it, were one of the things.
Also, the uncertainty of certain aspects of my life bothered me. As each day goes by and I get a day closer to my demise, I find it really hard to figure out whether or not I want this or that in my life. I consider myself to be a walking contradiction...
There are so many things that I lay in bed at night (alone) and wish I had....but at the same point<<<----reminds me of some1....... I do not want those things I need. I will not go deeper into what these things may be, but I am sure any smart person could figure them out. One thing I will admit is......a friend.....I so badly wish I has some1 to joke, talk, or hang out with, but cannot imagine how I could ever be around someone in that way.........hmmm oh well. Well I gotta go watch the last couple minutes of the game..........[[BLK]]

I'll be back!!!

Well it has been quite some time since I shared my thoughts with my fans out there. I hope the loyal ones have stuck around and waited while I worked some things out in my personal life. Now for those of you who think I don't have a personal life....good, keep it that way. I am very private and will usually keep anything personal.....personal. I rarely share fee;ings. emotions or anything along those lines. I don't like to and only will if the occasion calls for it, or if I feel you are close enough to me to know the "real" me.
Thats right there is a real me.......now I am not saying that I am fake or not real. It is just the persona I put on when I am out or around most people is not the way I am when I am 1 on 1. There are very few, and I mean maybe only a couple people who have seen the real Walter Warr......and one of them is my baby, AHW. Often times I sit late at night and ponder whether or not, or even if I could be the way I would like to be........I think thatb perhaps people who have come to know me the way I am would probably think I am being phony or just trying to be an a-hole. Also, for some unknown reason I have been branded with the "ASSHOLE" title.....I don't think that it is warrented......I happen to think I am a caring individual........
yeah well thats about it for now.........I will be back later and if you are craving more WWW (thats Walter Watt Wisdom) check me out on Twitter,,,,username MrWW
PEACE, LOVE, AND SOOOOOOUUUUUL

Nevermore, nevermore.......

It seems as though things for me are at a stand-still........My life has hit the wall as far as new and exciting things go. I think I am going through a mid-life crisis. maybe not though, maybe I am just feeling a little down the pastfew days. Yeah, thats probably it. In fact as I write this I am beginning to feel a little better......not really but a little. I don't even know what it is......change of season??? Hmmm??
I don't know......it is what it is I guess, and nothing more.

Valentine's Day

HMmmm.......such a sad day......I bought my girl a webkin for Valentine's....it was what she wanted anyways so....easy. Had an idea in my mind on how something might play out, but it is almost ten pm and I am still here yuping on this.........Eff it I guess.

A child's eyes

When I am feeling down, or things in my world aren't quite as nice as I would like......I like to sit down with my daughter and just look into her eyes as I talk to her. When you look into a child's eyes it just makes you forget about what may be troubling you. In their eyes you can see things like hope, excitement, or just happiness in general. Most kids are full of the things that we as adults sometimes lack, or have lees of in our lives. So if you are ever down look into a kid's eyes....
Well four day weekend coming up and I wonder what 2 do.......Family Day. Supposed to do something with family I guess.....well see. But I will probably go to a movie with my baby.......but like I always say....we'll see

No Title Required

I AM THE ZODIAC!!!!

"Kid food"

There is someone I know who I am going to be giving the nickname "Kid food". I think that it is a good nickname, but some might think it is dumb. There is a reason for this name.......This certain person whom shall remain nameless seems to really like eating kid food. Just to explain what kid food is, it would be things like Chef Boyardee, Pogos and Pizza pops. Maybe there are other adults who like eating that stuff, but I myself cannot remember the last time I ate Chef Boyardee......and I used to eat pizza pops years ago, back when I used to get the "munchies"....and as a result of getting those said "munchies" a lot, I can't stand Pizza pops anymore. So yeah, now this person's nickname is "Kid food".........
But anyways today is Saturday and I am really not up to much this weekend. Lastnight went to a movie cqlled "The Uninvited"......and I thought it was so stupid, and the whole movie has no real point.....up until like the last few minutes when the big "Sixth Sense" type twist happens. If you are planning on seeing it, don't waste your money........go see "Slumdog Millionaire", which I wanted to see but was out-numbered 2-1. Ah well. After that we went to the casino, and thats all I have to say about that. I finally figured out how to put certain things on my page. Please feel free to listen to some music while reading, and also please leave a comment in the Guestbook.........well thats it for now, and tonight I am going to watch some UFC on Spike...............

Friday......

Another Friday is here....hmmm, I wonder? There is nothing really much to say yet again...I am probably not going to do anything tonight.....maybe watch a movie. Maybe play some Wii.........so bored right now.

Til the day

I can sit here angry, wondering whether or not???
There are days you feel like flying, and days you want to stop.
I feel many things within a matter of a few minutes, none of which can be said.
I feel with my heart, my hands and my eyes. Too often things that are said cannot be unsaid. All I want to do is freeze the world and take 2 minutes and look into your eyes....
I would not have to say a word, neither would you.....and all would be said.
If words had to be said....I could not speak. Because if I did, well you know.
It is very easy to imagine a scenerio in your mind and have it play exactly as you wish. However when said scenerio comes to life in the real world....too often you are left holding your tounge.......................i don't have the answers to your questions, so stop asking me!!!!!

U gotta know when to hold 'em

Just listening to that song as I play Texas Hold 'Em on yahoo....makes me feel like a real gambler. I have played maybe like ten hands and nothing so far....but I actually just won a hand finally........just lost !200+ chips and I'm out....ah well. Maybe I will ho back later and play some more. I am just sitting here watching news and waiting until Aiden comes home from her bowling......kinda don't feel like typing now....BBL

secret code???!!!!

Bad Timing by Blue Rodeo

HMM???

Well I was just thinking about something I wanted to write about, but changed my mind as I think it might be a touchy subject. The last thing I would want to do is upset any of my worldwide readers......Lastnight I was thinking about something, and I decided that I was going to do it.... Each year for the past few years anyways there is something here in Thunder Bay called...."Comic Idol". It is a stand-up comedy competition for local people and there is something like a $500 prize for the winnder. Last year some guy won and I suppose he was pretty funny, but I have been known to be somewhat of a funny guy myself....and think I could win the thing. So yeah, I believe I will enter this year......if I can work myself up to avtually get over the fear of doing it.......
The new consalidated courthouse here in Thunder Bay is set to be put up near Brodie terminal in the area where Skaf's used to be. MP's of this area have said they believe it will revitalize the southward downtown corridor....thats a joke!!! That area is a shit-hole......and putting up a fancy gobernment building is just going to look out of place. The people who live/hang out down there don't seem to care about keeping their neighborhood nice looking......Garbage, drunks, and drugs.....and a fancy building. Please!! And, it is colder thana witches tittie out there today!!

Yet another day......

Same story, different day. Watched Gangs of New York this morning,,,,,,another movie I loce. I really, really, really like watching movies.....speaking of movies, I finally saw SpiderMan 3 the other day, and I really liked it. There was something I wanted to write about earlier, but cannot remember......oh yeah relationships!!! And the reasons as to why I don't think I want to be in one. All I see is people who are in relationships that don't seem to be worth it.......what I would want is someone to watch movies with, and talk to sometimes......maybe it would be so that if I got into a relationship, it would be good......but suppose all of them start good, the trick is to keep them good............GN, be back on the morrow........

La Dee Da

Had a weird kinfa funny thing happen to me the other day.....I decided to turn on the tele, and there are the usual channels I flip to when I watch TV.....so I turned to one channel there was a commercial for McDonalds, and there Grade A Canada egg they use in the McMuffin.....then I flopped the channel to see another commercial for EggLands best Eggs, and then I changed the channel to see yet another commercial for "Cooking with eggs".........was pretty weird.
Other than that right now I am just remembering the music I used to listen to, and how back then it was the coolest thing to me. I have never been one to be up on the latest music that is supposedly "cool" or whatever everyone else may be listening to. I am pretty much the same way these days and if someone was to see my play list on the PSP they would probably laugh at some of the tunes I have/ But, to me it is all about just being in the moment and listening to the music, or the beat. I also like how my daughter has a very different taste in the types of music she listens to. I mean she is into the typical songs and music that an eight year old girl would be into...Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus, HSM and so on and so forth. Then she can also sit down and listen to anything from American Pie by Don Maclean to I wanna Rock by Twisted Sister. Each time we listen to certain songs I usually try to tell her a little story about the artist or the time period it comes from, and I think she sees that I am always listening to different tunes........I do not know whether she will continue to be this way forever but hopefully..........

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"Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
He'll give me every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)"
- MockingBird by Eminem

Day in, Day out. It may seem as though I constantly am stating the obvious, but it is just I am such a proud Dad. There is rarely a day that goes by that my daughter does not do something that amazes me. It can be as simple as scoring a higher score on her Wii than the day before, or something as big as bringing home a report card filled with A's and B's. Back in 2001 when I became a parent I had no idea that it would be this difficult. With difficulties though comes more rewards than I could ever ask for.
I may not have much when it comes to material posses ions, or even life experiences to brag about......but ask me about my child and I could go on for days. It was actually this morning when she woke up at 7:10am when she came into my room and laid down beside me for awhile when we got to talking...
We decided then that we would sit down this weekend and write promise letters to each other. Our letters would be made up of promises that we would make to each other over the next few years. I asked her what she would write down, to which she replied " I would promise that I would always listen to you. And, always do good in school. ". There were a few others as well but I am sure you get the idea as to what she promised me. I too told told her I would always be there for her, and always make sure she comes first no matter what. We plan to write our letters and seal them until her 13th birthday and open them to make sure she always keeps her promises, and same goes for me. But it seems as though this could be a way to keep her on track to always being a good girl/student/friend etc. etc. The when she is thirteen we will do the same thing, and three years after open the letters and that would be just our thing...........anyways.....'til next time, act like ya know!!

Pop goes the........

Well another day another dollar. I am feeling somewhat better these days. As far as physically speaking.......so-so. Emotionally: I am feeling probably the same as I usually do. I think each day that I want to change some things about myself.....and yet I do not really know what is the matter with me.....
Am I sad??? Am I lonely??? NO, I really don't think so. I wake up each morning and think the same things.....get Aiden ready, do this, do that. Maybe what I am missing is do something for myself. Yeah, that is probably it! I am alos realizing that I am not really making any sense with what I am typing. I live my life fifteen minutes at a time, rarely do I plan more than a couple hours ahead......I always figure if I can make it to the next fifteen minutes.....I'm cool. I guess I will continue to live that way until someone comes along and makes me change. "Til next time.......act like ya know!!

Dear Aiden Haley Watt,
Just wanted to write a personal letter to you once afain. I know I tell you all the time but I do not think you could fully understand just how much your Dad loves you. I know you are getting older, and the things you need me to do for you are getting fewer and fewer, but I hope you will never stop needing your Dad. I will never stop needing you, you make every things in my life better, and you are everything that is good in me. As you get older I am going to probably annoy you with the way I want to hang onto my little girl, but I know that I will at some point have to let go. I just want you to know that I will promise you to always be there no matter what, no matter where and no matter for how long. You are the most important person in my life. Stay strong, beautiful and remember to always be cool no matter what anyone says to you. Because its the cool people that make this world good, and my baby uou are the coolest. I love you.
From, Your Dad Walter Darren Watt

Just wanted to put something else up

If you know me, you know I have a man-crush on Barack Obama and I have followed his historic march to the White House right from the beginning. I was tuned in with anticipation to his swearing in the other day, and although the whole day was mobing and historic. There was a very sad moment when The Obama's walked George Bush and his wife to the helicopter that would take gim over the Andrew Air Force base and then on a plave to Texas and retirement. I actually had a tear of sadness fall from my eye when I thought about George Bush is retired......I never liked him as President nor did I agree with anything he did......but I remembered that my brother did like him, and just that moment I think it was more about missing my brother and wishing he could have been here to see G.W.'s run as President over.....
yeah maybe that was it, and it never came to me until I started writing this out.....I wonder what Reg thought watching the events of the other day.....he probably toasted G.W with a Budweiser and smiled..........

It has been so long since....

Well it has been quite awhile since I have written anything down here. I have been writing more in my journal lately. I really enjoy writing as a way to release things that are bothering me or just anything I am think. The pasy month has been a very busy and tiring one. Once the whole Cristmas thing was done I had to plan a birthday party for my baby. On Sunday January 11th, which is her actual birthday, we had a big family dinner with all the aunts and cousins and other members. I cooked a big pot of spagetti and Aiden's grandma baked a bannock.....was a good meal and a pretty good time. The the following Satuday...which was the 17th we had a party for her friends and cousins. It was held here at our place and it was fun. We decorated the libing room with blacklights and her disco light, and held some statue games and dancing. Aiden and her guests all made their own ice cream sundaes, and pigged out on pizza......they actually ate too much before the cake and they didn't want to eat any cake.....so I sent each kid home with a peice. Anyways, it was fun and Aiden got quite a lot of cash and presents.
Really don't know what else to say right now, oh yeah we went to the mall the other day so Aiden could spend some of her birthday money.......and it is just so cute to watch her walk around certain stores looking for the right bracelet to match the right leggings...not tights she says. It just makes me realize that the day she won't need her dad watching over her while she does things like that is coming soon.......but for the time being I will enjoy the next few years with my baby!!!!!!