When I'm with you

There once was a day that I had all thought out in my mind.....a day that would have been nothing short of perfect. This day would have been sunny, warm, and with a slight cool breeze blowing. The type of day that you wished would go on forever. I would have had nothing planned but I am sure that things would have just went the way things are supposed to........
I really do not know what I would have said at first, but as always I think I would have been able to come up with something to say. You would gave been beautiful as always, and I am sure just as nervous as I would be. The day would turn into evening without us even noticing. And much like all days this one would come to an end....but not without a promise to do this all again....if not the nest day, one day very soon.

But this magical day has never come.

and sadly I do not think it will.........

All effed up

People are always complaining about how life is not going their way, and about how miserable things are in their lives. I am not one of those people......Although I feel that perhaps I have a lot to complain about, I don't. I rarely let things out so that others can hear them.....I guess that is why I go to a "shrink". Just so that I do not have to bother others with my BS. I often wonder though if maybe I should go to others with certain things rather than being so shut in all the time. Nah!!! I think I will continue to keep things in....

HMMMM???

Another Sunday evening is here and I continue to think and even wish for something ecxiting to happen. I suppose I can wish and hope all I want but until I finally get up and make something happen.....nothing will. Watching my Canucks play in game 3 of their series against St. Lious......Had a few nights to think this past week and there were really a few things that just would not get out of my mind. Obviously, my daughter Aiden and her future, and what she will make of it, were one of the things.
Also, the uncertainty of certain aspects of my life bothered me. As each day goes by and I get a day closer to my demise, I find it really hard to figure out whether or not I want this or that in my life. I consider myself to be a walking contradiction...
There are so many things that I lay in bed at night (alone) and wish I had....but at the same point<<<----reminds me of some1....... I do not want those things I need. I will not go deeper into what these things may be, but I am sure any smart person could figure them out. One thing I will admit is......a friend.....I so badly wish I has some1 to joke, talk, or hang out with, but cannot imagine how I could ever be around someone in that way.........hmmm oh well. Well I gotta go watch the last couple minutes of the game..........[[BLK]]

I'll be back!!!

Well it has been quite some time since I shared my thoughts with my fans out there. I hope the loyal ones have stuck around and waited while I worked some things out in my personal life. Now for those of you who think I don't have a personal life....good, keep it that way. I am very private and will usually keep anything personal.....personal. I rarely share fee;ings. emotions or anything along those lines. I don't like to and only will if the occasion calls for it, or if I feel you are close enough to me to know the "real" me.
Thats right there is a real me.......now I am not saying that I am fake or not real. It is just the persona I put on when I am out or around most people is not the way I am when I am 1 on 1. There are very few, and I mean maybe only a couple people who have seen the real Walter Warr......and one of them is my baby, AHW. Often times I sit late at night and ponder whether or not, or even if I could be the way I would like to be........I think thatb perhaps people who have come to know me the way I am would probably think I am being phony or just trying to be an a-hole. Also, for some unknown reason I have been branded with the "ASSHOLE" title.....I don't think that it is warrented......I happen to think I am a caring individual........
yeah well thats about it for now.........I will be back later and if you are craving more WWW (thats Walter Watt Wisdom) check me out on Twitter,,,,username MrWW
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