Can't sleep

I don't know why when I posted my 1st entry last time it was almost 10pm but the time on here registered 6:52pm....hmm. Anyways, it is almost 2am and I was thinking about going to sleep, but then I realized I just am not tired. I hope that my blog can become one that alot of people will look to and read.
I really can't put into words what being a dad means to me. I recently had another birthday and it sort of hit me pretty hard. I sat back to ponder my life and realized I really have nothing....no friends, no life and nothing that a man my age should want or have. Although this is the case, I am not so much bothered by it. Or am I?? Anyways on my birthday I didn't go out and do what is expected or what others may do....you know the partying and drinking. I sort of thought maybe I should have. But no, on that day I went to the mall for lunch with my daughter and five year-old niece. As crappy as I may have been feeling about my inability to have anything different, it hit me at lunch that all that did not matter. My niece....who is the cutest and like really my second best friend.....says to me " Uncle Walter? Is this what you are only doing for your birthday? Just hanging out with me and Aiden. " It was at that point I realized......that is what it is all about.....these girls. Also my other neice and nephew....love you Aiden, Adrianna "Munk:', Natasha and can't forget about the handsomest little man around Austin!! ~~ and the newest member, Lil' Reg!!